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Social anxiety is not necessarily having huge panic attacks when you’re in a crowd.

It is, a lot of the time, little things that are usually easy just being complete hell on earth, like:

• Crying just thinking about having to give a presentation in class
• Not playing games or participating in fun activities (even with your friends) because you’re afraid you’ll be terrible at it and people will judge you
• Having to rehearse your order at the restaurant a hundred times
• And counting your money 10 times to make sure you have enough (even though you have plenty)
• Being overly concerned about the way you look because you think people are judging you
• Feeling anxious every time someone laughs because they’re definitely laughing at you oh god
• Getting nervous about coming late to school because you’ll have to get in class and everyone will look at you
• Crying a little when someone says you’re wrong or screams at you (especially in front of other people)
• Not knowing what to talk about even with friends that have a lot of things in common with you
• Feeling uncomfortable being in the front row in class or at the cinema because you think everyone is staring at you
• Thinking and rehearsing for 5 minutes the simple things you’ll have to say in class (like “here” or “yes, I did my homework”)
• Being afraid that the teacher will ask you something in class
• Being embarrassed of something you did or said literally months ago (that probably wasn’t so bad)
• Pushing people away when they show any type of interest because they’re definitely making fun of you and actually hate you
• Going out of your way to avoid someone in public because you actually cannot talk to them
• Biting you tongue or lips or clenching your fists or digging your nails into you leg when you’re embarrassed
• Being scared of being alone with only 1 person because you don’t know what to do or say
• Constantly hating yourself because you can’t do easy things like having a small conversation